OK so today is my birthday. I’m resolving to post on this blog more. If for no other reason but simply to get my thoughts out there… it’s healthy, you know?

Since my last post, I gave up the studio, started working for a photographer (Farrah Braniff) and for Ward & Ames. I’m finally starting to understand my strengths and what I love, as well as my weaknesses and the things I hate. I’m finding out what inspires me to create. In the past, there was one simple variable that was hindering me from achieving these personal epiphanies - rent. Eliminating the studio was the best single decision I ever made (regarding money). Now the equation is simple: work=money.

I’m finding that I can satisfy my need to create from pretty much anywhere. All I need is my trusty laptop. I’m so thankful for the opportunities that have presented themselves to me in the past couple months and I truly believe that I’m headed down the right path.

So here’s to being 25. This is going to be MY year.

I officially landed a gig managing my next event. This time, it’s in Vegas, baby! I’ll be there for a week, starting on January 18th, working Monday through Friday at the IBS (International Business Systems) Trade Show at the Hilton. Specifically, I’ll be working with Kohler, Inc. managing their demos. Which means I’ll be directing people and audio technicians to make sure everyone’s in the right place at the right time with the right mic. I’m told it’s a keep-you-on-your-toes kind of gig, which will be wonderful for me. I’m going today to get some Dr. Scholl’s inserts.

I’m really lucky to be involved with this company and I can’t wait to continue my work with them. I’ve found the fast-paced, high-stress world of event management one that I could really make a home in.

Thank goodness I feel MUCH better today. I took the day off to sleep. Apparently, that’s all I needed. That, and a day where I drank more water than alcohol - and not coconut water. I think I need a major detox. And blasted, if I could get on a sleep schedule that worked for me that would be great.

I write this with bitterness and hurt feelings. Poor decision? Probably, but I resolve it to be my last.

It’s recently come to my attention that I am driven not by logic or reasoning, but by my emotions. They say that better business and life decisions are made when emotion isn’t allowed to color the reasoning. But to be honest, I can’t think of one decision I’ve made in my life that wasn’t a direct result of my then current mood. So where does that leave me? Emotionless.

I have a hard time with this because I do a lot of business with friends, and have lots of relationships built on networking. It’s kind of an all or nothing deal for me here - if I take emotion out of something somewhere, it’s going to affect all the aspects of my life. Maybe I’m ready for that! No, I won’t become a bitch, nor will I be cold-hearted. What I will (try to) be, however, is a strong, confident and effective decision maker who demands respect from my associates by my actions. I will make no apologies for my choices, nor will I excessively explain myself as I now tend to do.

2009 will make for an interesting year…

Now I’m hungry for a pop-tart.

Lately I’ve been feeling the effects of aging. I know I’m only 24 but I’m starting to feel subtle changes. My hair feels different. I know it’s on it’s way out, but it’s hard to describe… it just feels different. My skin feels different too… I can hear the collective smug smiles of everyone around me my senior.  All I gotta say is SHUT UP! I knew this would happen but I didn’t know it would make me feel so wierd! Does it get worse? :/

Ever notice how your computer can be your best friend and then turn its back on you in the time it takes to process a byte? ARRGH.

One of the downfalls of owning my own business is that I am the sole IT person. When a computer fails, whether it was my fault or not, it’s my responsibility to fix it. It usually knocks out two days from my schedule just to get it all back together. Fortunately, this time it was only my office computer. And it was only a corrupt operating system, not a failed hard drive (which is the WORST!) It’s sitting in a pile next to me as I write this (on my laptop) and I’m just glaring at it like it slept with my mother. How could such a trusted friend betray me like this?! I must have pushed it away by always asking it to do naughty things. Well this time around I promise to be more loving and to give it the respect it deserves.

Or get a new one :/

I’ve been watching a lot of 30 Rock as of late and it’s taught me a handful of life lessons…

My favorite so far : “Live every week like it’s Shark Week.”

Watch out, life, here I come.

Ever have one of those days where all you want to do is curl up with a lazy cat and a cup of hot chocolate and play Super Nintendo all day? Yeah.

It’s my Birthday!

Turning 24 has been a little bittersweet…

Many years ago, I created an unofficial list of goals and set the accomplish date to today, July 21st 2008 - My 24th birthday. I realized last week as plans for my party were being made that I hadn’t accomplished but a rare few of these goals. I couldn’t get them done in a week, so I slipped into a state of despair and disappointment. Why wasn’t I more pursuant of these goals that seemed to matter so much to me? I still want to acheive them, and in fact the experience of letting myself down has motivated me even more to get them done. So, this year will be a great one. I will make damn sure of it.

I love the even years. They seem brighter somehow. Already, today seems cheerier and the sky bluer than yesterday. I’m sure it’s a matter of perception and outlook. Either way, I’m happy where I am.

I know it will be a good year because Korey did something for me that he’s never EVER done for me before - he wrote me a song! Here are the lyrics:

I kid you not - straight from his heart, that is. I love my Korey and he made sure that this Birthday was perfect. I can’t wait to spend this next year with him!